Anxiety/ Ansiedad

An attack

This is it. This has to be the worst one I’ll ever get. The only one that will last 6 hours. The last one that will trick me into thinking I’m in the process of a slow death. I asked for help. I let them see me cry. And their ignorance and insignificance made it worse. The first thing on my mind is to get a psychologist. After arguing against the opportunity while I’m on a high, I break down and regret not contacting one earlier. And it’s moments like this when the idea of paying a stranger to help and listen to me doesn’t sound pathetic. Because nothing is pathetic when you’re gasping for air and you’re too busy counting the speed your heart is racing at to breathe.

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Un ataque

Eso es todo. Este tiene que ser el peor que pueda tener. El único que durará 6 horas. El último que me engañará para que piense que estoy en el proceso de una muerte lenta. Pedí ayuda. Dejé que me vieran llorar. Y su ignorancia e insignificancia lo empeoraron. Lo primero en mi mente es conseguir un psicólogo. Después de discutir en contra de la oportunidad mientras estoy feliz, me desanimo y me arrepiento de no haber contactado con uno antes. Y es en momentos como este cuando la idea de pagarle a un extraño para que me ayude y escuche no suena patético. Porque nada es patético cuando estás jadeando en busca de aire y estás demasiado ocupado contando la velocidad a la que tu corazón está acelerando para respirar.

 

Talk to someone.

 

Habla con alguien.

-Angela

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Quotes that made me want to read Charles Bukowski’s work

“… and we are in bed together laughing and we don’t care about anything …”

— The Most Beautiful Woman In Town

 

“My ambition is handicapped by laziness”
 Charles BukowskiFactotum

 

“Is it over?”

“Yes.”

“Does she still love you?”

“I think so.”

“Then it’s not over.”

— Women

 

“Stop insisting on clearing your head — clear your fucking heart instead.”

— Selected Letters Vol. 4 (1987-1994)

 

if you first have to read it to your wife
or your girlfriend or your boyfriend
or your parents or to anybody at all,
you’re not ready.

So You Want To Be A Writer

 

“Boring damned people. All over the earth. Propagating more boring damned people. What a horror show. The earth swarmed with them.”
 Charles Bukowski

Charles Bukowski- Views on Writing

“Of course, shit, hope you can find a poem or two in these; if not return those you cannot use, or the works. rejection is good for the soul. my soul is now a mule.”

 

 

“They must be full of power. Each line should have power, its own juice. You have to put some juice into your words.”

 

And an amazing ending.

 

My Favorite Coffee & Ice Cream Spots in Prague, Czech Republic — ISA Today

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